It’s been seven months since the day you told me that
we should end our relationship because it is the best for the both of us. I am
supposed to be okay now and living my life without your love and presence.
Yet I could still feel the rumbling pain in my chest every time our memories
come up to my mind and all I can do is to cry silently because I know deeply
here in my heart that we are just a product of the past. Those sleepless nights
because I am still thinking on how happy we use to be before, that I thought
this will never end.
I keep on asking myself why we need to
be separate when I know everything is okay, when I know that our love is
enough.
A broken glass that even if I tried many times to fix
it will never be the same again.
Day, weeks and months had passed and I thought
everything has changed just like your feelings for me that fades away but there
still one thing that remains it was my unconditional love for you. I know I
should stop myself from loving you because it hurts a lot but I don’t know how.
I pretend not to care and still I am here, hoping that one day you will come
back saying that you can’t live a single day without me. But I know even in
dreams it will never happen.
Loving you was my choice even thought I know my heart
will be shattered into small pieces but here I am being so stupid in believing
that there would be a second chance for us. But it’s time for me build a new
beginning without you, our memories, promises and plans. I should be brave to
face this all alone. Maybe one day all of this pain in my heart will be
dissolved and gone that I will never feel any hatred. That day the smile that
you see before and the shines in my eyes will come back. It is hard to let go
on you.
Let go the things that I thought it was real but it is
the best choice to make for me to completely be okay in time. I know you have a
new life now and you are now happy. And this is the time to fix myself instead
of trying to fix what it is already broke.
To love myself
first before loving anyone else.
This would be
even if it’s hurt. I hope things would be better for the both of us. When we
meet for the first time I promised that I am totally moved on from us, from
this pain
I will be alright then..
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#nukilanmisslili #melaka
#mencaridirisendiri
#sehinggaakumenjadiaku
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